“What do I want to be when I grow up?”
Scientist. Dancer. Artist.
My choice was to be a scientist. From all the other possibilities it seemed to be the most reasonable one. I wouldn’t need to be talented or original to start in science. I would just need to be a hard worker and have a strong motivation. Although one of the key factors to be a great scientist is to think outside of the box, to see what no one else sees, I wouldn’t need that skill to give the first step. I could gain that skill from years of experience.
On the other hand to start in something that requires loads of creativity I would need a bright and shiny sparkle that would make me stand out from the crowd. Or you have it or you don’t. And I don’t have it.
“Did I make the right decision?”
I think I made the right decision. I can be a dancer, a photographer, a designer during my spare time. If I was a full time dancer I couldn’t go to a random lab and make an experiment during my spare time.
There are moments, and they are becoming more recurrent, where I wonder “What if…?”
I have a crazy need to express myself in a creative way. I want to create dance choreographies. I want to take artistic photos. I want to make colourful outfits. Basically I want to have a more creative job.
“Will I continue in science after my PhD?”
Maybe yes. Maybe not.
Photo taken by Roberto Keller at Instituto Gulbenkian de Ciência, Oeiras, Portugal, February 2010.